Question for you – how big is God’s strength?
What’s the first word, image, sound or feeling of which you became aware when I asked you that question?
For me it was the horizon.
Second question. When you ask God for strength, how do you receive it? Do you try to carry it or do you lean into it?
I discovered this morning I’ve been trying to carry it, and it’s not working for me. Why? Because of the answer to question 1.
This morning I went forward for prayer at church as our pastor said anyone that is struggling with health issues come forward. Struggling is a very good word to describe the last month for me.
I had my eyes closed, my hands open to receive and someone touches my hand and starts to pray for me. I felt this infusion of something very powerful but at the same time I felt my knees buckle, like this is too big for me. For a minute or two I tried to stand there, but I knew to fully receive what my Heavenly Father was doing I just had to totally let go and do exactly that … receive.
I stepped over to a wall just a few feet in front of me, slid down it and sat there leaning up against it. It was so cool, so strong, immovable … hmmmmmm … just like Father God, Jesus and Holy Spirit – my rock. I just had to lean in more, the strength of it felt sooooo good. The more I leaned, the more I relaxed, the more I received.
Revelation. This is it. This is Psalm 29:11 come to life for me.
I have been meditating on this verse ever since Holy Spirit highlighted it to me almost two month’s ago in my post “Manufacturer’s Instructions”. This is part 2 of my new paradigm about strength. My perspective of God’s strength has been something additional I had to pile on to all I was already carrying and then be able to wield it skillfully, so there was no way it could be refreshing or empowering – rather just the opposite. That’s why my knees buckled this morning, my body reacted before I could “brace myself”. Jehovah “sneaky” caught me unawares to set me free to receive the gift of totally leaning into His strength.
Now I know why I was so drawn to these cliffs during our trip to California last year … as big as they are, the strength God has for me to lean on is bigger.
He has more than enough strength for every one of us. Care to lean in with me?