It’s amazing the secrets we keep from ourselves. I’ve seen this from the perspective of what I wrote in this past blog post, but just last night I had a dream that revealed “current secrets” of which I was unaware. And I almost missed the opportunity being offered to me. It is Saturday morning after a long week, I woke from the dream but didn’t want to get up and record it. I wanted to sleep more so I would be prepared for my day. I was like a kid who’s parent is trying to get them out of bed. The more I “tried” to sleep, the more I woke up. I finally said “Uncle”, I’ll journal Father and got up. I’m so glad I did.
In the dream I am in a mansion type house and apparently it belongs to my friend who leads our inner healing ministry at church. She is only there for a moment and asks me if I will take care of things. I say yes. I am washing dishes and looking for somewhere to put them away. Every cupboard I open is full of stuff – dishes, knick knacks and none of it looks very useful to me. I am trying to put away dishes we’ve used for eating (i.e. something we really need). I’m amazed by finding so much stuff. I had no idea she had such a big place and that it was so crammed full. I feel frustrated and don’t know what to do. I don’t want to let my friend down but there is just no room for anything more.
The last scene is I am still in my friend’s house. I look over and there is a large staircase and I see a warrior type man “surf” down the stairs very similar to the battle scene in the first Lord of the Rings movie when Legalos slides down the stair to rescue his friends. He seems wild, powerful, and there to defend all while thoroughly enjoying himself and having fun. I wake up.
I know my friend in the dream represents where I go off and minister inner healing to others, and the mansion is where You, Heavenly Father, have given me to live, i.e., my belief systems that You have been restoring all these years. That’s You surfing in to rescue me, isn’t it Jeshua? You love to come to our aid. You are wild, powerful, here to defend us, loyal and true and totally love being and doing all of that!
So my question is – what is the stuff I think I need that really needs to go. I immediately here “the way things were”. I am so consumed with trying to get back what was in my life at a time when life looked more the way I wanted it to that there is no room for the new that You have for me in order to go forward. Nailed. You are AMAZING Father. I had no clue. I am so thankful that You do!!!
Father I come out of agreement with the lie that what what I need to be happy and fulfilled is to get back to the way things were. In this moment I see myself opening all those cupboards and I see what is in them somehow being carried out to go to Goodwill to help others. I come into agreement with the truth of 1 Corinthians 2:9
What eye has not seen and ear has not heard
and has not entered into the heart of man,
[all that] God has prepared (made and keeps ready)
for those who love Him
[who hold Him in affectionate reverence,
promptly obeying Him and gratefully recognizing
the benefits He has bestowed].
But, as the Tanakh says,
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard
and no one’s heart has imagined
all the things that God has prepared
for those who love him.”
Complete Jewish Bible
That’s what You have for me and that is what I want!!! No coincidence that when I opened Biblegateway just now the verse for the day is:
How amazing Father that You have revealed to me the “secret petition of my heart” that was buried under the lies and how You will fulfill this secret petition. Great are You LORD and greatly to be praised!! Thank You for being such a good parent and getting me up this morning when I was reluctant to do so 🙂 I wanted to sleep more to be prepared for my day. Thanks to You, now I really am prepared!
My prayer for you is that you will not lose tomorrow looking back for yesterday. What’s in your cupboards that needs to go to make room for what our Heavenly Father has for you?