I heard an interesting statement by Danny Silk of Bethel in his podcast “Expectancy”. that we need to break off the vow with ourselves that we won’t be OK because “fill in the blank” has happened.
It raises a question from my last post. If we are tapped into this river of life and it flows up from our roots/core/heart, what happens when we don’t want to listen to our heart because we are afraid of what we might hear?
So frightened that if we listen, all we will hear is the pain of loss, grief, hopelessness, and come face to face with the child in us that is crying out for whatever it needs or has needed for longer than we can remember. We don’t want to hear because we don’t know if we or anyone else can meet that need.
That is exactly the place to which we need to give a voice. I can promise you from my own experience doing that won’t destroy you. How can that be true? That place where whatever thing or person to which we connected in the past to try to get that need met has failed, God wants to fill with His love (Rom 8:38-39), light (John 1:4-5) and truth (John 8:32) in order to set us free from the ungodly belief the need is unquenchable and unfillable. You will have to fill-in your own blank on what is your “go to” to meet your needs. It may be a parent, a spouse, a job, food, control, being a perfectionist or even isolating yourself, to name a few possibilities. You can recognize it by the numerous times you have turned to it and it always ends with the dismal result that declares “no hope”.
Where those things have failed to meet our valid needs for love; for identity; for safety, to know our value and worth; to be seen just as we are and completely accepted; for connection; for healing for a broken heart – God wants us to let whatever those sources are “off the hook” for being our supply.
If that source is a person to forgive them for being broken themselves and just not having what we need. If it is a thing like perfectionism, isolation, control or food to break off the agreement we have made with it that it can keep us safer than God can. If it is a lost loved one, to break off agreement with the lie that allowing God to our heal our heart means we didn’t love them. Follow that by making the choice to forgive ourselves for choosing whatever else we chose over God and asking God to forgive us for making that choice. Jesus knew we’d make such choices when he said “forgive them for they know not what they do” (Luke 23:34). Our Heavenly Father’s promise to us is if we confess our sins and ask His forgiveness, He is quick and faithful to forgive (1 John 1:9).
Now is when it really gets good, because we are then ready to turn and to give those oh so very valid needs to our Heavenly Father to be filled exceedingly, abundantly above what we can dare to ask or imagine according to His riches in glory. (Eph 3:19-20, Phil 4:19).
Definitely a reason to listen to our hearts with hope!