Today I need things pretty simple, and that’s exactly what my Heavenly Father provided.
The Fibromyalgia is bad today, the myosfascia is so tight it literally feels like my muscles will tear when I move. Standing in church with everything in me hurting this morning, I had no big prayer, I just said “Ok God, what is this?”
I saw this picture of sunshine behind the clouds and that’s what it is like right now. The truth is my healing is complete in Jesus, but it is just a cloudy day. I’m just not seeing it today. It’s just that simple. It’s no different than the sun behind the clouds. The clouds don’t change the truth that sun is shining brightly and that it is there whether I can see it or not.
The enemy is trying to sell me a bill of goods that I deserve to feel this way today. I spent yesterday out enjoying a beautiful fall day with my husband enjoying a picnic sharing a bottle of wine. Today the enemy’s fiery darts are: because I made those choices, I have to suffer.
Well, I’m not buying that bill of goods, because if I do that means what Jesus did for me was not enough. The enemy is trying to cloud the truth of my healing with this pain. He’s using clouds of doubt trying to get me to believe that somehow because I feel this way I’ve done something wrong; I’m being punished; or maybe the fibromyalgia is bigger than what God can do for me. Maybe the healing I have experienced wasn’t real at all … because I’m not experiencing it in this moment.
So I have a choice – what will I believe? Or maybe more accurately, who will I believe?
My choice: it’s just a cloudy day. Just like my Heavenly Father showed me.
My choice: is to be thankful.
- I’m thankful for the truth that my healing is real.
- I’m thankful for the muscle relaxers the doctors have given me for days like this.
- I’m thankful for french doors my husband installed so I can let the outside in while I rest on my couch and enjoy my football 🙂
- I am thankful for beautiful days and picnics to share with my husband.
- I am thankful that there is sunshine even on the cloudiest of days.
My prayer for you is wherever you are not experiencing the truth of God’s promises that your heart may be comforted by the truth of sunshine on cloudy days.